Wow it has been awhile since I've connected here- I'm not really sure why I haven't had much to say, but I have decided to start New Year's resoluteness early- I will write in my blog once a week..I will... we'll see.
Anyway, it is December and it is snowing and it is lovely, really lovely, to be living in upstate New York today. This is not true everyday, but it is true today and I am really enjoying it. I have not done my Christmas shopping, which is not unusual for me, but I do have some ideas and that is good. I want to shop downtown, but most of the stores there do not have the "wish list" items, so they get shopped for stocking items, and surprise gifts. I will head down there today and hopefully start marking folks off the list.
I am still unemployed and that is stressful. I keep thinking today will be the day, but then I get caught up in doing "things" and suddenly it is night time and very little has been accomplished. I wonder about making money online and really don't know if that is possible. I see lots of scams and that makes me stop from exploring it more. I want to sell stuff on eBay, I even got a sellers account, but I haven't gone beyond that... scared I'll do it wrong or sell something for nothing that is worth a lot, which I don't know and can't figure out how to find out... too many variables to move forward. But again, maybe today is the day.
Been decorating the house- which is always fun and it is very easy to feel joy putting the Santa's around... tree is up with lights, will let the kids put on the ornaments, so hopefully that will be done soon. Have decided to have a holiday party- first one in years- feel a need for some cheer and really want to thank all those who have had us over, been our friends, etc. Need to get started on the food ideas and that will give me something to focus on other then money.
But Money is always the issue. Why is that? Why is there not enough when there is so much everywhere? What my family needs to relatively little to be happy... but it is always a struggle to get that in and now with the unemployment, it is really difficult. The phone rings constantly from creditors and I find it hard to cope. Why is there no money? I am smart, my husband is smart, we work hard and don't buy extravagant things, but still there isn't enough...
I know I need to solve the money issue, because I know I am Middle America which means everyone else is struggling with this, and if I can find a way, they can too. I will explore these other sources of money and let you know how it goes... I will find ways to make enough soon, I feel it, and then my family will have a Merry Christmas and a Happy Hanukkah, and so will everyone else.
